Christine's Transition Adventures

[Christine]

Hi Folks,           22 Apr 2018

On 21 Feb 2018, I contacted via email a licensed professional counselor; she gave me an appointment for 08 March 18, the official start of my transition. Prior to my appointment I wrote a bio that outlined my feelings and life over the past 77+ years. Basically, it was about my feelings, desires and actions during that time. I laid it all out, not omitting anything related to my desire to be a girl when I was a kid and a woman when I became an adult.

It was two pages long and was extremely personal. After the introduction and small talk I gave her the bio and asked her to read it. As she progressed through it, she would ask clarifying questions. When she was done I asked for the bio back as it was too personal to have someone other than me have a copy.

When I went I didn't know that much about transgender; I thought maybe I was gay, screwy or just mixed up. At the end of the session she told me I was not gay, I loved women and was a transgender woman.

Long story short, from my first counseling session I was on HRT 27 Mar 18 (2 weeks and five days); on 13 Apr 2018 I had my orchiectomy, five weeks and one day from that first session.

Depending on numerous factors, such as age, motivation, availability of transgender friendly counselors, doctors, surgeons, one's willingness to travel for treatment, etc. you can proceed as rapidly or as slowly as you feel comfortable. I am fortunate in that I live in a suburb of Fort Worth, a part of the Dallas Fort Worth Metroplex; everything I needed is right here.

My only advice is to do what you believe is correct for you and makes you happy. Don't worry about what others think because no matter what one does there will always be someone that doesn't like it; live for you.

I'm only one person, I did what I feel is the right thing for me. I want to live the rest of my life as the woman I have always wanted to be.

You will find lots of great information on this site and plenty of good advice and first person experiences. Hope this helps in some small way. I know I don't have all the answers and I did rely on the experiences of site members.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

Hi Folks,            27 Apr 2018

When I went to my 1st counselor I was dressed 100% female; what I wore was jeans, t-top and a pink, blue and white plaid shirt. I wanted to make a good impression; I think I did. I have gotten so used to wearing women's clothing that I don't give it much thought. I hardly have any men's clothing except old stuff I use for dirty-work. Granted, most of the bottoms I wear are slacks and jeans which could be considered gender-neutral, but I almost always wear something pink, my favorite color. No one around here gives me a second look so they either don't care, don't suspect, or think I'm a kook. At my stage of life, soon to be 78, I don't care; I just want to be who I want to be so I can be happy, which I am.

Orchi update: Almost all the minor bruising is gone; Willy's helmet still has a couple remnants of the hematoma but it should be gone in a few more days. Today is the second week since my surgery, no pain, I like the fact that the scrotum is empty and is shrinking rapidly. Tested my libido... none. My "T" must be at zero or less. The two incisions, about 1 inch in length each right and left side, are completely healed and barely any noticeable scar. I'm glad I chose the inguinal, which is the only orchi the surgeon I used will do. They try to minimize scaring.

Monday I see my Endocrinologist for a checkup and blood test. I'm wondering what she will do to my Estradiol dosage. It's now a patch twice weekly. I'll let you know Monday. I thought I might be developing boobs but nothing much seems to be happening on that playing field. Maybe I need to quit thinking about them and then one day they will just pop up compliments of the "Boob-Fairy," which would be welcome. If and when they pop up, I think I'll just let them poke out as much as they want; no bra, just free standing (I hope) or sagging (whatever) some. It will be interesting whatever happens.

I've been on HRT exactly one month today. I don't seem to have lost any upper body strength or stamina. I'm working on my mower today so I can mow the pasture tomorrow. Also have a couple of trees that need to be wrecked out (taken down). Finally getting some decent weather on a weekly basis rather than a day or two at a time. I cannot handle being cold.

Gotta go, have to get the mower fixed so I can be productive tomorrow.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

Good Morning Folks,              28 April 2018

When I was a snot-nosed kid most people my current age resided in boneyards or nursing homes. In 1979 there was a documentary on PBS; it was about two doctors in St. Paul, MN that had a theory that there was no excuse for getting old. They went to nursing homes and found people that had been bed ridden for long periods of time. They put them on special diets and exercise programs. In a months time they had these folks up and walking around.

At the end of the program one of the doctors made a statement that I'll have to paraphrase. He said that there was no reason why someone 85 couldn't do anything they wanted to do; obviously you can't do anything about wrinkles, falling  and or graying hair. He said that the biggest problem people have is that many of them think that when they become 55 or so they have the idea they should just sit and watch TV. That inactivity then becomes a self fulfilling prophecy. Never forgot that message.

In 1990, one of my co-workers suggested an "Office Ski Trip." I was almost 50. It was organized by a travel agency so there was a plane load of skiers all going to the same place. One of those folks has been an inspiration ever since; he was a man of 85 years young. Won't ever forget him. It turned out to be a fun trip. Went from crashing multiple times on the Bunny slopes to skiing the Black Diamond runs. Continued skiing spending lots of time skiing Taos Ski Valley, New Mexico. They have some of the most difficult runs in this country. Between Ski Valley and the emergency room in town I was a regular visitor to both. Never was a good skier but I enjoyed the thrill of those dangerous runs. I now pay a price for that "fun." Everything in life has a price tag attached; it's just when does the bill come due.

I would hazard a guess I may be close to being one of the oldest members on this site. Anyone out here 78 or older? Hope there is, I don't need the title "Geezerina" just yet; I want to complete the fourth quarter and then go into overtime. Once in overtime I'll willingly accept the title. I hope we are all still here then.

Best Always, Love,
Christine

PS:

Keep Moving.

[Christine]

Hi Folks,              01 May 2018

Went to the VA today to get fitted for new hearing aids; that's done so they should be ready by 31 May. While there decided to see my primary VA doctor. When I sprung the Estradiol patch script my endocrinologist wrote for me yesterday, he asked me if I knew what the side affects are. It was time to educate him on some basic transgender issues. I'm his first TG patient. Told him about the gender Dysphoria, the long desire to be a woman, counseling, HRT and the orchi. He asked If I still had a penis and prostate, to which I answered in the affirmative. He then wanted to know if I was going to hook up with men, to which I responded in the negative. He sat there with a puzzled look to which I responded I'm a lesbian, I love women. He seemed relieved.

He has referred me to the women's clinic for OBGYN consultation. He did approve the Estradiol patches, which he was initially hesitant to do. I think our frank talk alleviated his concerns so I ended up with my other prescriptions corrected and the patches compliments of the VA.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

Hi Folks,              02 May 2018

It was obvious my VA doctor didn't know much about transgender folks. I schooled him as best I could with my extremely knowledgable old wives tales (sarc). He said he would put in a consult with the Women's Clinic for me. Sure enough they called today and asked me if I wanted to transfer to their part of the VA clinic. I told them I'd make an appointment with them and stay where I am. As I have had time to think things over I now think it best if I move there as I won't have to compete with all the guys that use the regular clinic. I'm going to call them tomorrow and make an appointment for my regular physical come this October.

The lady I talked with kind of made me laugh when she said I could move up there (2nd floor) where I could have my vaginal swabs, mammograms, birth control and what not taken care of right there. I had to remind her that I'm transgender post orchi, with a Willy and on HRT.

She did verify my Estradiol patches have been approved and ordered. I should probably have them by early next week.

Now I won't have to give up $70.00 worth of feel good (junk) food each month. That's a lot of "Marinela Sponch Marshmallow Cookies" I can eat. If you have never tried them, don't, they are habit forming. I started buying them 28 years ago when I lived in Mexico City. When I returned to the US I couldn't find them until recently. Phoned Bimbo (pronounced Beembo) Bakeries of Horsham, PA. They told me I could find them in certain Wally-World stores and Fiesta Super Markets. Every time I find them I buy all they have on the shelf. I'm not addicted to them; really I'm not; honest injun. (Hope that's not a derogatory comment as it isn't intended to be; it's from my earlier childhood days, which have yet to end.)

I noticed something today, maybe it's just my imagination, but I think my facial skin is sagging less and smoothing out. Is this possible this soon after starting HRT? Hope it's not wishful thinking. I would take a picture but my camera broke the last time I tried. Gotta get that thing fixed one of these days. Can you believe this: The camera and lens both cratered at the same time. That's what I get for trying to take a selfie.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

Hello Young Lady,                04 May 2018

Thank you for the very kind words; I'm glad that my post is of some help to you. It is obvious from all the posts here that each person's transition journey is a personal issue, made at their comfort level. Some of my earliest memories are of wanting to be a girl. Growing up in the early forties prevented me from saying anything to my parents. Had I done so, my father would have killed me. I repressed my desires as best I could. Rather than rehash what I have already posted, I'll jump forward 25 years.

I got married, had a fantastic wife that helped me with my wearing of women's clothing. Long story, we got divorced (I walked out on her), all my fault. After two failed marriages I gave up on that institution. About 6 or so years ago I started dressing almost exclusively female. To be clear I only wore women's jeans, slacks, shoes, and shirts that were somewhat neutral, but with many feminine colors. I have been wearing women's under-ware for 48 years.

Last year I started doing some research on a different subject that was slightly related to transgender. Long story short I continued my research adding transgender. It soon became my main focus. Once I was convinced that transitioning MTF was the right decision. I sought out a counselor that had a lot of experience with transgender clients. I wrote a personal bio that I took to my first appointment. She read, we talked, each asked questions. When the session was finished she told me I was a transgender woman.

My first appointment was 08 March 2018, I consider that day the official start of my transition. I had two visits with her, one with a second counselor, visit to my primary doctor, an endocrinologist, and two pre-op visits with a surgeon. My orchi surgery was on Friday 13 April 2018. All that was done within 5 weeks and 1 day.

Why did I move so fast? I am 77 years of age, will be 78 in three months. Most likely I don't have 30 or 40 years remaining, so I wanted to get where I wanted to be as rapidly as possible. I didn't want to waste my time on any test periods, which most folks are required to endure. What I have had done is irreversible, that's why they generally require you to go slowly, in case you change your mind you can stop and most of the changes will reverse and you will be back to where you were when you started. Stopping is not an option for me, nor do I want it to be.

I am happier than ever before, I have outed myself to just about everyone I know and even to strangers. Outing has actually been fun. As time goes on I continue to add attire that is more obviously feminine. This afternoon I went to our monthly MTF group meeting. My attire was noticeably more feminine than usual. On the way home I stopped at a crowded Cracker Barrel and had dinner; no one seemed to give a hoot how I was dressed and I wouldn't have cared if they did.

I don't want to hold myself up as a model for anyone to try and follow. My case is unusual due to age, I would not recommend a young person transitioning as rapidly as I have; they have many years ahead of them. I see my life as being somewhat like a football or basketball game, which consists of four quarters. I am in the fourth quarter of my life; I have done more in the first three quarters of my life than 10 people; I know how I want to live the fourth quarter along with some overtime thrown in.

My advice: Seek out good competent transgender counselors, find good doctors and surgeons. Do NOT self medicate; that is asking for trouble. Research transitioning, drugs used, types of surgeries, surgical options, get references, talk to people who have transitioned. Scour this site; there is a wealth of information and advice here and it's a friendly and safe place. Before I started my transition I was here reading as much as I could. There have been many here that have helped my along the way, too many to mention individually. I love this place, it's a super asset to our community (those of us that live it each day of our lives), to the world and to anyone curious about transgender.

Sorry this is so long; once I get started I have a difficult time stopping, I hope it is found to be useful, but not used as a model. Every person is an individual and requires an individual course. That's where one's counselors, doctors and fellow travelers on the Transition Highway come into play. Generally, no one person has all the answers.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

    Haa, two potential moderator who have no idea what they are in for.

Hi Dena,               07 May 2018

Maybe one of these days after I develop a better feel for how things are "Supposed" to be rather than how I might think they should be.

Had my second post op today; while I was with the doctor and his assistant, they called me "sweetie" several times. I liked it; moving right along!

It's been three weeks and three days since my surgery; the doctor looked a lot younger than he did the day of the surgery. Do the hormones change the way we perceive what we see?

I have noticed I don't stink like I used to when I would perspire during heavy physical activity; now there's no odor at all. Thank you "Orchie."

My next post op is six months out; all these have been included in the one price they charge.

Received my meds from the VA; unfortunately, they sent the wrong strength patches; talked with them this AM, just waiting to hear what they are going to do. I've also transferred to the "Women's Clinic;" moving right along, even more so.

All is well, hope the same for you and everyone here.

Got to run, I hear a tree calling me.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

Hello Folks,                 13 May 2018

Today marks one month since my Orchie; One of the best things I have ever had done to my body.

Weather was nice, slight wind so I did Poison Ivy eradication today. Will repeat the process again tomorrow, weather permitting (low wind).

I am feeling fine, I am happy, low in aggression, calm, sleep well, pee better each day, boobs are starting to poke a tiny bit, the nips are sensitive, my hips and booty seem to be expanding based upon how my jeans and slacks fit (more feminine). I don't think I have lost any strength, I lifted and carried several large logs today w/o any extra effort.

This next week I should be climbing the trees that need work. That will be the real test for strength and stamina; all bets are off until that reality check. My gut says "No Problem." One of my goals is to maintain my male fitness and actually improve it. I know I can never pass as a woman, just too rough around the edges. If the edges were ground off there'd be nothing remaining. I can't live in a fantasy land of my own making. That said, I am having fun, and that's one of the important things that should count for all of us.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

Good Afternoon Folks,            15 May 2018

Learned something this past week after I had put my previous Estradiol patch on: I had placed it about an inch above my bellybutton. Big mistake. That area has a bit of flab and is subject to a lot of rolling and folding from bending over. It caused the patch to loosen and almost get lost during a shower. I had to add adhesive tape over it to keep it in place until it was time to replace it, which it was today.

Took all the tape and the patch off; lots of residue from the tape but nothing noticeable from the patch, Applied baby oil and let it sit for a few minutes. Was able to get it all off but it took longer than patch residue. Took a shower, and applied the new patch along my side where it isn't subject to bending and folding skin. Lesson learned.

Also need to get the flab off and that means stopping the enormous quantities of junk food starting today. Also need more aerobic exercise so out comes my road bike for a spring cleaning, lube and adjustments. It'll take a couple of weeks riding it before my butt and crotch acclimate themselves to those wonderful road bike saddles (seats). They remind me of the cutting side of a fire axe blade being used for a seat. I did learn several years ago that panty liners of a reasonable thickness are a tremendous help in reducing the pain and suffering (torture).

I had my chest, back and Brazilian area waxed about one week before my orchi surgery. This AM I noticed that the hair on my chest and abdomen is barely noticeable and what is returning is very fine compared to growth prior to HRT and orchi. The hair on my chest has always reminded me of a giant Brillo pad.

That's it for today, I'm going to start my diet tomorrow as I have a lot of junk food to get rid of before commencing it. Just joking, the diet has commenced. I am going to allow a small and measured amount of junk food once a week. My goal is to lose at least 10 pounds of fat, get rid of the flab in front and rebuild my six-pack. We'll see how this goes. If I fail, you be the first to NOT hear about it. I've done this before and I won't fail.

Something I learned long ago was reinforced today: "You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make it drink."

Years ago I climbed a mountain just to see what I thought would be a beautiful beach on the other side. When I got there all I found was another mountain. Decided to accept what I could accomplish rather than trying to do the impossible.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

Hi Folks,                      19 May 2018

Here we are two days beyond the prior update. Weighed myself again, this time with only underwear. One pound over my weight the day I joined the Navy 55 years ago, two inches shorter and two testes lighter.

Speaking of testes, now that I know how much better I feel physically and mentally without them, my only regret is that I didn't have them removed years ago. Everything is better now, happiness, calmness, disappearing aggression, better sleep. The orchie was one of the most positive things I have ever done to my body and HRT is right in there with it.

I'm letting the "Magic Mushrooms" work their magic; hopefully by November when my 3rd post op is due, I'll have some decent "Speed Bumps" adorning my chest.

If I could pick what I wanted in boobs, I'd want a set like Carol Wayne had. She was two years younger and passed away 13 January 1985 by drowning. She made over 100 appearances on The Tonight Show with Johnny Carson appearing as the Matine Lady.

If I could develop a set like hers were, I'd never get bored; I'd always have nice things to play with.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

Hi Folks,             21 May 2018

I started shaving my whole body 48 years ago; my wife took care of my back and anyplace I couldn't safely get to and I did the same for her. It was a win, win situation. When I was a snot-nosed kid I wanted to be "Hairy" like all the men at the pool. Once my body became covered in rug fibers, I wished I had never wished to be like those hairy gorillas.

HRT seems to be having a decent impact on my body fur; I just wish it would go away. The only thing worse than body hair is Gray Body hair, and that's what I have had in surplus for the last 40 years. Any one need some spare hair?

Think I mentioned I tried electrolysis on the pubes; Came back heaver than what was removed. I'm seriously thinking of going back to the person that did mine and have them try a small area on my head where the hair is quite thin. I think this might tie in to what Jayne01 said about a special setting that changes gray to dark. There may be a connection. I'd sure like to find a cure for cue-baldness.

I started this post before I went to pick Ella up at the "Beauty Saloon;" when we got home I fed the crew, except me, took them out and then crashed. I went to bed this AM around 0530 hrs. and got up around 0720 hrs. I have to stop this less than 8 hours of good sleep each night. Its not a healthy situation, especially someone as young as I am. I need beauty rest and lots of it.

Did get a nice surprise today, twice. Two friends, a female and male. noticed my boobs poking out. Now that made my day. I think they are close to needing a training bra but I'm going to let them roam free as long as I can get away with it. I hope they end up at the high end of a "B" or low end of a "C." New toys to play with.

Still have a few more things to do here tonight then I am crashing until late tomorrow. Looking forward to my VA appointment on the 31st; get my new hearing contraptions and my transfer to the Women's Clinic, all in one day.

They did send me a three month supply of Estradiol so I'm now in good shape. Thank God for the Magic Mushrooms. I better check my appointment schedule for my next endocrinologist appointment; it should be coming up soon.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

Hi Everyone,                   27 May 2018

Had a good day yesterday; outed myself to one of my best friends and his family. It went very well; everyone was surprised but very supporting. Have one more to do up near the Oklahoma border. We are going to drive up and film this outing. Should be interesting.

Is this supposed to be as much fun as I am having doing it?

The very first was a bit spooky, then fun; now they are a blast. I think it's the shock I see from them, then their acceptance and support.

Maybe it was the gradual phasing in of women's clothing why no one noticed a big change. They just kept seeing me. After outing they mentioned they saw the different colors and styles, but didn't think anything of it; it was just me being me, always outside the box.

Not much for 4 days. will try harder next week.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

Hi Folks,                28 May 2018

I have been wearing women's underwear for 48 years and gradually increasing what I was wearing that was conspicuous. Sometime back I was dressed up (so I thought) to go out with my friends. I stopped to look at myself in a full length mirror. I was aghast at what I looked like: A frumpy looking bum in clean ill fitting clothes. I was disgusted by how I looked. I started looking on the net for how to convert my male size into women's sizes. Figured out I was a size 8 and bought a pair of women's jeans. I couldn't believe how well they fit and looked. I never went back to men's wear. My closets are full of women's slacks, jeans, tops, shoes, socks, panties (fit even better after the orchie) and even one dress, which needs to see a tailor. I'm a happy camper and am happy the testosterone generators are history.

You know what I think? I think a lot of men are somewhat envious of what we have done. Every male has a feminine side though are loathe to admit it, let alone act on it. During my search for sizing, I found some interesting stats; 40% of the women's jeans that are sold are bought by men for themselves. A large percentage of men wear women's panties. I don't remember the percentage number but it is higher than I thought. Go to Jockey's web site and look through the reviews for some of their women's panties. Half the reviews for some styles are written by men. Why shouldn't they wear them, they are more comfortable than anything made for men now and in the past and are a whole lot prettier.

So far I haven't had a single negative response to my outing; it's all been positive. What I am also finding is that transgender people are really some of the nicest people you could ever want to meet..., excluding me of course.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

Hi Folks,                        31 May 2018

The 40% is of the number of women's jeans sold, not 40% of men. I should have made the distinction.

Today was a great day at the VA; received my fancy new hearing contraptions. They have direct Bluetooth streaming to my cell phone and the device they are sending me that allows me to hear the TV through those contraptions.

Next I went to the Women's Clinic where I met my new doctor. We discussed all the female issues I now happily have: boobies, happy juice (Estradiol), mammograms, pap smears (oops, that's for the person in the next room), bone density scans (she put in a consult for one) and hormone check. She also concurred that with the "McNasty Twins"  gone, the chance of developing prostate cancer is close to zilch.

This was rightfully a great day today.

Yesterday was also a great day, had dinner with Ella Raines yesterday evening; what a beautiful and great lady she is. Hope to see her again the next time she is in Tejas.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

Hi Folks,                 03 June 2018

Today I'm preparing for another adventure that starts tomorrow morning. I'm getting all my ducks lined up in a nice neat row. This part of my trip is quite enjoyable. Lots to do between now and my departure tomorrow morning at 0750 hrs CDT. I have a whole list of things I need to gather up for my overnight case and things I personally need to do to prepare myself physically for the rigors of this adventure. If you have ever been on one of these adventure trips you'll know exactly what I'm about to tell you.

One of the neatest things about this trip is there will be video of the trip from beginning to end. This trip requires a special diet to get me into tip top condition for the rigors I will experience. Just thinking about it gets my adrenalin flowing. I can hardly wait for tomorrow. For the first part I am going alone, then later in the day I will be met by a good friend who will pick me up and bring my back to my starting point.

This diet is a gem to behold. This past Thursday I had to stop eating high fiber foods, raw fruits, vegetables, whole grain wheat and multi-grain foods, nuts, popcorn, seeds, bran and anything that causes bulking.

Today the menu is quite complex; I can have clear liquids for Breakfast, Lunch and Supper. I'm supposed to drink all this fluid all day long. I can just see me at the pee trough every 15 minutes. My clear liquids consist of strained fruit juices without pulp (apple (ugh), lemonade, white grape (ugh)), water, Gatorade, popsicles, snow cones (where am I going to find one of those) carbonated soft drinks (yay), Jell-O, clear broth and bouillon, coffee or tea without creamer or milk and nothing red or purple. Looks like a diet to die from.

At 1800 hrs CDT I take my first dose of cleanser called Clenpiq. I have to drink the 160 ml bottle of this solution followed by five 8-oz cups of clear liquid within the following two hours. At 0330 hrs CDT Monday morning I repeat the 160 ml of Clenpiq followed by three 8-oz cups of clear liquid within the next hour. I have to have all this completed four hours before my scheduled arrival time.

I have made this trip about five times over the last two centuries. The only pleasant thing is the trip to Happy-Land compliments of "Milk-of-Amnesia" aka Propofol. This stuff is so good Michael Jackson highly recommends the stuff... What you say, Michael is no longer above ground. I better be careful. The great thing about this stuff is you go off to "Happy-Land" at the flick of a switch to ON. When you are ready to return to the World of Fake News, they flip the switch to OFF and in moments you are back.

I am doing this without sedation; no benzodiazepines, aka Benzos such as Midazolam. Versad, Valium, Xanax, Diazepam, etc. These meds are dangerous for old geezers like me.

The place I am going for my trip makes you wear a stupid and uncomfortable gown. I am going to refuse the gown and do it nude with a sheet covering me. I'm a nudist and could care less who sees me naked. Hm, maybe anyone that sees me will get sick at the sight of a wrinkly empty scrotum.

My trip is for my periodic colonoscopy and endoscopy. I'm also going to request doing this totally conscious, though i don't think they will agree to it because of the gag reflex during the endo procedure. I'll have a talk with the doctor prior to the procedure.

Since they video both procedures from beginning to the back end, I am going to request that they supply me with a complete copy of the video for both procedures. If they do, I'll post a link to it.

Tomorrow, I'll let you know how everything comes out, literally and figuratively.

I'm hungry. If I could just have a BLT

Best Always, Love,
Christine

[Christine]

Hi Folks,                           03 June 2018

This is going to be brief; I think I have consumed at least two gallons of water today. This new prep was a lot easier to get down than anything I have had in the past. It's two 160 ml bottles of something that kind of tastes like Sprite. It's even a bit fizzy.

I started the prep at 1805 hrs. then spent two hours drinking clear liquids. I just drank water for the first four times then a 7-UP.

It's now 2219 and things have calmed down somewhat. I have to do a repeat at 0330 hrs. Monday morning. I then have one hour to drink three 8 oz. glasses of clear liquid. I have to be finished with the prep (consuming clear liquid) by 0430, which is four hours before my scheduled arrival time of 0830 for a 0930 procedure. That leaves enough time for the prep to do its dastardly deeds. At that point I cannot have anything additional to drink until after the procedure.

The last time I had this was 5 years ago. They found one polyp and my esophagus was messed up from GERD, which is under control via omeprazole (generic Prilosec). I also have a hiatal hernia and dyspepsia. This periodically requires dilation of the esophagus. Whatever the condition actually is, it causes food to get stuck on the way to the stomach causing me to choke. I have learned to never swallow food without having my lungs fairly full of air. That way if food gets stuck in my airway I can cough it out. If my lungs were empty when it gets stuck I have to have someone do the Heimich Maneuver for me if they are available. If no one is available I have to do it myself using the back if a chair. There are several ways to do it for yourself and for someone who is choking.

Here's a link that shows several methods:   https://www.wikihow.com/Perform-the-Heimlich-Maneuver

I just weighed myself; I weigh less than I did when I joined the Navy 55 years ago. I'm down to 149 lbs. Hope it isn't too windy today.

I have an insulated small shopping bag that Braum's Dairy Store gave me late last year. It's in the freezer right now. Before I leave I'll put a few of my junk food goodies in it so they will stay cold until I'm done waking up and am able to indulge myself.

So far everything feels calm so I'm going to get dressed and take the pups out for their evening stroll. Also have to put the trash out as tomorrow is trash and Recycle pickup. I'm kind of wishing I had boarded the Dogs for the night and part of tomorrow. If everything comes out alright, I should be home by noon. It'll be time to feed them and take them out for their lunch stroll.

While waiting for the prep to make its grand entrance, I had begun thinking it wasn't going to work. Then all of a sudden it was like a Typhoon erupting. I don't know if any of you have been in one, but let me tell you they are violent out in the Pacific Ocean. We'd spend days with the ship "hove to" heading into the wind and remaining as stationary as possible (little or no forward progress).

Will update you mañana en la tarde.

Hasta luego mis amigas, Muchas gracias.

Best Always, Love,

Christine

[Christine]

Hi Folks,                          04 June 2018

Got home about an hour ago; fed the pups, then took them out. They did just fine without their mom this AM. They didn't get into any mischief and were waiting at the door when I walked in. Can't ask for more than that.

I received good new from the scoping; all is fine but not perfect. I do have Diverticulosis that hasn't been causing any problems. If I eat a high fiber diet that will help keep things under control.

I am very tired; haven't had much sleep these last few days. It has taken about two hours just to get this far with this journal entry. I'm going to take a nap then come back later and finish this in another entry... if I can remember.

I am glad I didn't try to drive home. I left the car there and had a friend come and retrieve me. I'll go get it later in the day when I am fully recovered from the Propofol, aka "Milk of Amnesia."

Luego mis amigas.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

Hi Folks,                     Wednesday   06 June 2018

Monday around 2000 hrs. I felt good enough to retrieve my car, which I left parked at the endoscopy facility. I wasn't in any shape to drive home when I left the facility after my procedures. I was so tired from all the prep stuff staying up almost 48 hours. I was like a zombie when I arrived there.

I did get my wish and was able to forego the stupid gown; buck naked covered by a warm blanket. Spoke to my doctor about skipping anesthesia for both procedures. He said he has done a couple of them. He said the colonoscopy was no big deal w/o anesthesia, but the endoscopy can be very difficult for the patient to handle due to the gag reflex. He also said the people he did w/o anesthesia said they would never do it again. One of his partners had him do his w/o it; he got violent on the table trying to punch my doctor. When it was over he said it was like someone trying to shove a Coke can down his throat.

They do the Endo before the Colonoscopy due to the possibility of cross contamination, I decided to go ahead and accept the anesthesia for both procedures. They only used propofol which is fast acting and short duration. Takes about 2 minutes for the full affect and lasts 5 to 10 minutes after infusion has ceased. I now regret that I didn't try the non anesthesia route. We'll do this again in 5 years, maybe I'll try it then.

When I picked up my car I still felt extremely tired. I really didn't feel like doing much Tuesday either though I did get a lot of rest and decent sleep. Right now I feel fine and could probably stay up all night but I am going to shower and go to bed as soon as I am finished with this journal entry.

On the way home yesterday, I did stop at Krispy Kreme to pick up some hot donuts for my friends and myself. Those donuts are all I had to eat yesterday and this morning. What a way to start off after those procedures. Did eat a real meal yesterday late afternoon. Think I may have a small bucket of ice cream before I take my shower; haven't had any for about a week.

Oh yeah, one piece of advice from my doctor: Eat more high fiber foods and less red meat. Think I am going to make a real effort in this regard. I did it once before and I felt like a million bucks. It's not easy but it is worth the effort.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

Hi Folks.                         13 June 2018

Update and Misc Stuff:

It's been one week since I posted on this infamous thread. Finally finished repairing a toilet that had been out of commission forever. Had to replace all moving parts. Nice to have a fully functioning bathroom close to my bedroom.

Visited my endocrinologist Monday to arrange for a bone density scan. My VA doctor suggested it to establish a base line for future reference. The referral should be ready today so I'll give the lab a call after they open.

The transaxle (how about that, a trans machine part) is finished and needs to be reinstalled in the trans-tractor. Do need a bit of help installing it; would hate for it to fall. Already spent $400.00+ on parts for it. Once it's bolted into place the rest will be easy.

Lots of tree work to do along with mowing. Weather has been decent, hot and dry. Do need rain; looks like there may be some at the beginning of next week.

Still haven't done anything with my bike; need to clean and lube it. It's the best method for me to keep in shape without going to a gym.

Since my endoscopy and colonoscopy, I have been eating less red meat and more high fiber foods and have further reduced the junk food. My BMI was 23.83 (18.5 - 24.9 range) at this last endoscopy visit. I spoke to her relative to taking on additional trans folks. She has hired a new endocrinologist who will be starting in August. Once the new doctor is in place they will begin taking on additional trans patients, which is good for our community. Monday 11 June I called for an appointment and was able to get a 1220 hrs. that same day.

If you found this post boring, don't feel bad, so did I.

That's about it for this week; off to the shower, slap on a couple new estradiol patches and have breakfast. Have a great week everyone.

Best Always, Love

Christine

[Christine]

Hi Folks               26 June 2018

Holy moly, it's been 15 days since I posted on this thread. Let's see... what have I been doing that's boring during that time; everything:

1. Cleaning up my office, which hasn't been attended to since 2014. Reason: Don't like doing things I don't like doing.

2. Upgrading my PC's peripheral items: New illuminated Logitech keyboard. Now I can sit here in total darkness and find the keys I need while using the "Hunt and Peck" method of typing. I used to type over 200 words per minute. Problem was no one, including me, could read it. I added a 7 port USB 3.0 externally powered hub with a charging port. Added a Logitech Pro Webcam and a home grown camera stand that is quite nifty, if I say so myself.  My goal is to get Skype up and running soon. I did download Skype home version then deleted it with the intent of using Skype for Business. After consultation with Dena, I decided to take her advise and use the home version. The Business version costs money, Skype is owned by Micro Limp, who I detest with a passion so I will not be putting any more money in Bill and Malinda Gates' pockets. My next PC will NOT be running Windows; there's better stuff out there like Mac. I do not have stock in either. I do have several things in common with Bill gates; we both have been in: 1. the computer business; 2. In jail. If you don't believe me, look him up; he was arrested by the Albuquerque, NM police on 29 April 1975.

3. Had my "Bone Density" scan/test this past Friday. I asked the lady that tested me how my bones looked; she said they would probably make good soup. I should find out today from my endocrinologist whether that was a valid or fake CNN evaluation.

4. Over these past 2+ weeks we have had some windy weather. At one point it seemed like we were in a typhoon. I have been in them numerous times while working aboard ship operating in the Pacific Ocean. If you have never been in one, don't go looking for one because they are violent and dangerous. They are probably more dangerous than visiting and eating at "Mickey D's" "grommet" establishments. They really should supply free Ex Lax for desert with each order.

I did manage to do a fair amount of tree work during these past couple of weeks. Now all I have to do is clean up the branches that are scattered around the pasture. I have half a notion to call in someone with a large chipper to turn the branches into compost.

5. I have outed myself to just about everyone I know that I care about, a whopping total of 1 peoples. Unfortunately, I think that friendship turned out to be a pseudo friendship. I see it as a positive; I no longer feel obligated to send them Get Well cards. Yes, outing oneself is a very rewarding endeavor; you truly find out who your real friends are. One nice thing about my situation, having had only one friend, I didn't lose much. This brings to mind my Coyote friend I met last year. She initiated the friendship, which I felt was the highest honor I have ever received. She just liked being with me; if I called her she would come within 5 minutes if she was in hearing range. On 06 July 2017, she said goodbye and went off with the mate she selected. I miss her more than I miss most people on this planet. I knew she had to go away so she could be what she was supposed to be, a Real Coyote, a mate and Mom. Believe me, this portion of this thread is one of the truest things I have written about. This isn't a Sea Story, it's fact. I do miss her; it is a great honor to have had her as a friend. I hope she, her mate and their future puppies have good and safe lives. I know I will see her again when we meet at "The Rainbow Bridge."

6. I have been letting my hair grow; nothing new to report on this item, still looks like moth eaten cotton. I'll give the magic mushrooms a year before I declare victory or just shave it all off like I had done the previous 14 years. I realize I'm not a spring chicken, I'll never be an attractive woman (there's not enough money on earth for that to happen) so most likely I'll just continue dressing as I have done for the past 6+ years and let people think what they want to think. All I care about in my transition is that I am happy with who and what I am. As long as I don't do something to harm someone other than me, I'll be fine and no one should take issue with it, though there will always be some Jerk that will take issue with someone else's business.

7. My plan is to get Skype up and running within the last five days of June. The only thing that worries me is folks will be  able to see my messy office. It's my office so I can have it look like Albert Einstein's office did when he was alive.

8. I'm sure I have missed something. If I remember something please rest assured I'll forget it before I enter it again.


Best Always, Love

Christine