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« on: December 28, 2019, 03:00:32 AM »


      Thought best to sport a link to my blog(s) rather than just post all here. I have had one *FOREVER*, well since 2006 anyway, but because it was never made "public view" the DISORDER is now quite obvious for everybody else to see. At some point, now unsure why, had that "other site" change my username to "Chloe" which I did on my site as well but then I thought, having also simply replaced the original "Kiera", why not just start *anew*?

      I shall hereby make an attempt to "publish" too because . . . the "forum thing" has not only gotten quite old but still 'ave some FIXING to do on mine as well. I've always liked to keep my thoughts private but, at some point, one needs to come out of one's "Comfort Shell"! (And a thought that has been on my mind these last couple of HOLIDAYS):

A quote from The Misanthrope Alcest:

“Betrayed and wronged in everything,
I’ll flee this bitter world where vice is king,
And seek some spot unpeopled and apart
Where I’ll be free to have an honest heart.”

And that "honest heart" is our untainted children for sure!

[ Unsure still how to deal with "comments", suppose as I post "links to" here comments made here ok as well? But of course! There is a comment area there but one has to be "registered" as always been wary of allowing "guests" to post. You figuring out what's best for you is quite ok . . . or just not at all! ]
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« Reply #1 on: May 14, 2020, 04:28:46 AM »
What l find of interest, or at least of note is that l didn't learn about it until decades after my srs.

Haven't seen the "Indian Tribes" either am currently on pg 67 only . .

Quote from: '51 Male Transsexuals and the Results of their Operations'
By the end of 1964, a total of 249 male transvestites were observed in my offices, either in New York or in San Francisco. Of these, 152 were diagnosed as transsexuals

      As may have already mentioned I was 9, living in the "pine barrens" of New Jersey, in 1966 when Benjamin first published his work. After a short high school stint in Florida I then moved in 1973 to a suburb of NYC to be with my father but it wasn't until late '78, by then already in a longstanding gay high school romance, that I then discovered Nancy Hunt's book and the true meaning behind what I had been feeling/experiencing all along . . .

lol and it's all been downhill since then?

       Of course THAT is with the exception of a twenty-year marriage from hell? By then had heard of the Benjamin name but tell myself perhaps it was just as well given the "hit-and-miss" success rate of early SRS surgeries? Besides, Lord Knows I would have 'prolly easily caved at the least bit/hint of professional scrutiny/discouragement and thus chose to please my father by accepting a starting position at a premier World Airways instead!



(Note new sig! A narrative line from Hector Berlioz' opera "Lélio", a sequel to his "Symphonie Fantastique", that epitomizes the  romantic power of the musical "Idée fixe" (and the suicidal inability to irradicate it?). When played very forte have found London Symphony to be best! Considered a "National Hero" Berlioz was on the paper 10-franc note until 1979 along with many others)

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« Reply #2 on: May 16, 2020, 12:38:02 PM »
Kiera, is there a story to your avatar image?

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« Reply #3 on: May 16, 2020, 05:00:02 PM »
Kiera, is there a story to your avatar image?

Maddie,
        I'm pretty sure it's Vanya Hargreeves from The Umbrella Academy. As a student of history, philosophy and music who's mostly lived the indulgent life of her character brother Klaus suppose the dark mood and violin case both represent my love of music, Romantic themes, and sense of tragedy? The umbrella must be obvious, therapist Erin asked same question, it's what I've hidden under for the last 40 years in that imaginary world of "transgender" or whatever it is that people think that means?

        I've been "out" for quite a while now, just 'bout everyone who matters "knows", but it's pretty much still unspoken as I continue to just nominally present "as me"! Am waiting for someone to correct, direct me "to be" otherwise? Unexpectantly ran into a "men's church group" friend at Walmart the other day and, during Zoom meet later online, he says "hey [boyname] quite the shorts your wearing certainly shaking it" to which, surprising myself, I replied . .

" ;) why thanks Jeff so glad SOMEONE notices!"

Well lol "My Life" in a nutshell! Living in The Conservative Bible Belt like I do am SENIOR, older than all of 'em (better health too?) but, being accepted and well-liked, isn't THAT what really counts?

(ps: had news today gonna be a GRANDPARENT again, close encounter for the fourth time! All live nearby so mucho baby-sitting for sure we got one, 4, going on 5 and now a Christmas baby hatching too? I 'ave an order in for "another boy" yea yea i know don't count too soon!)

"Pushing past the limit tripping on hallucinogenics"
"Go find yourself a man who's strong and tall and Christian"

(click line below to expand lyrics)
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« Reply #4 on: May 17, 2020, 06:42:42 AM »
Thanks for showing us your beautiful Stang

      @Christine, *sigh*, don't 'ave that car anymore (stock photo actually is "for sale") was forced to give it up when I moved from Florida to my father's in 1974 . . and it was a 351 "Windsor" which is now considered "large block" (5.8liter), same size used in ex-spousy's '96 E-150 conversion van (sans the fuel injection of course).

       Sorry to give the wrong impression, been "pretending" too long, besides I'm more into boats these days my 1964 Pacemaker had (again past tense!) twin '68 427 Chevys and grandma's 1983 Havasu City Arizona boat, which IS in backyard, has what's called a 229ci Cobra Jet V6 stern drive?

We definitely camp & play in smaller Georgia lakes these days!

       Speaking of "pretenders" (My City is Gone) not only do I NOT correct people but find that they don't apologize anymore when supposedly "misgendering" me? Was in Kroger this AM buying milk & coffee and the very nice older lady "checkout helping" caught me by surprise when, upon chatting 'bout stuff, she started to refer to "my husband"?

lol Always Makes My Day And actually had this short Mexican guy, very clear English, try and "pick me up" in Walmart parking couple weeks back . . lol Again I thanked him for the compliment but, sorry, NOT TODAY!

       Am adding new meaning to the word "detransition"? Insist on nominally dressing one's birth gender (although don't do that really as my "clothing labels" are all definitely feminine dept) and allowing others to ASSUME, make the mistake instead - as in detransitioning "to female"? Cowardly I know but, hey, it's a mental leap that works for me! )

(ps: and, btw, I seriously question this forum's certain "older crowd" attitude . . Is this oft-mentioned *haughtiness* really becoming of a girl, "a lady"? Seems the chief difference I see between THEN and NOW is this whole idea' fixed of what it exactly means to be "a woman" has changed . . wholly abandoning from each/to each according to one's ASSIGNED male/female place"? )

TERF? A feminist? Yuck! Sorry perhaps it's just me, the Southern "Manners" Thing of acting helpless, in order to make another feel important, when really not? Find ALL to be rather "unbecoming" at best!

All our experiences ARE different and that includes "values" as well?
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« Reply #5 on: May 17, 2020, 09:23:21 AM »
Thank you Kiera for posting the links at the top and bottom of your post.
Endless portals of darkness though.

Was Jeff's comment to you a compliment, or was it intended negatively?
Either way, I love the way your reply was positive, genuinely and humbly thanking him.

I'm going to look up "gentry" now

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« Reply #6 on: May 17, 2020, 01:38:13 PM »
(ps: and, btw, I seriously question this forum's certain "older crowd" attitude . . Is this oft-mentioned *haughtiness* really becoming of a girl, "a lady"? Seems the chief difference I see between THEN and NOW is this whole idea' fixed of what it exactly means to be "a woman" has changed . . wholly abandoning from each/to each according to one's ASSIGNED male/female place"? )

I have to admit I’m just a simple person and seem to have a heck of a lot of difficulty trying to figure out what the hell you’re trying to say sometimes? Would you care to unpack this a bit in slightly less nebulous and baroque terms and in English?

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TERF? A feminist? Yuck! Sorry perhaps it's just me, the Southern "Manners" Thing of acting helpless, in order to make another feel important, when really not? Find ALL to be rather "unbecoming" at best!


I’m so lost. I need a drink.

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All our experiences ARE different and that includes "values" as well?

Finally a statement I can understand but then you went and made it a question leaving me again trying to interpret your intent.

Help those of feeble mind our, will you please?  (and pass whatever you're smoking to the left)  ::)

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« Reply #7 on: May 17, 2020, 03:07:54 PM »
Help those of feeble mind our, will you please?  (and pass whatever you're smoking to the left)  ::)

SORRY! Don't smoke or drink . . or drugs, at least not anymore!

Perhaps THATS a part of The Problem? I will try to elucidate better or, failing that, fall back on me 'ole STANDBY of silence! I do 'ave other "clear as mud" replies in draft and perhaps constant interruptions doesn't help either?

Not you but THEM, the crazy 'normal' people I deal with daily!

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« Reply #8 on: May 17, 2020, 04:51:38 PM »
I'm going to look up "gentry" now

       lol Maddie a short, to the point answer it's "airline gentry" which is quite different from the "classic" definition:

Quote from: wiki definition of 'Gentry'
"People of high social class, in particular of the land-owning social class. Gentry are "well-born, genteel and well-bred people" of high social class, especially in the past. In the United Kingdom, the term gentry refers to the landed gentry . . "
        It's a play on words as am certainly NOT "rich" or "snobbish" but, rather, the phrase "gentry" refers to the fact that I've been flying The World for FREE even before the day I was born in the sense that - > mom, in August of 1955, was pregnant with "me" when "dad" was hired as a 2nd Officier with Pan American World Airways and family made the (not-so?) "great" move to New York . . with 'moi' arriving in Feb of '56!

Subsequently working for both Pan Am and Delta myself "Landed", as in airplane, refers to my 30 year retirement and actually having the time to travel and go WHEREVER I want! I actually attained my goal of always wanting to be a 60's style flight attendant (as in the ABC's series "Pan Am") but, with aircraft & times changing plus being hired as "a man", it was very short-lived chose to work airport ops and be home every night instead.

Transsexual pilots certainly did not go over well at all back then so WHY should I have assumed that FA's would 'ave faired any better?

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« Reply #9 on: May 20, 2020, 03:42:24 AM »
Thanks again for your comment. Obviously I'm quite a narcissistic egomaniac . .

     Hair is beautiful Elisabeth . . that and your heartfelt story is making us all insane envious! I say if ya 'ave it then "flaunt it"! I've been growing mine, with two short-cut exceptions, since before 2006 when Delta officially changed the ultra-conservative "boys grooming policy" in an attempt to "appease", keep us from voting union after it's bankruptcy in 2005. I was working ramp operations at the time (losing your luggage rather than physically wrestling with you over flight fare changes) and it was amazing how many "ponytails" grew and came out OVERNIGHT lol having hidden them all along under our unisex uniform caps!

       My nickname @ work soon became "ponytail" and could tell ya many funny co-worker stories but didn't cut it again until 2010 (my final divorce hearing) and then, for the very last time, around 2015 when I was under the mistaken impression that I had to look "professional" to get hired for a job driving a local truck?

      I think NOT what a mistake that was! After 'bout 3 years the owner of the business, a very religious conservative young guy (Burt, who had inherited it from his grandfather) actually commented "but you DO have nice hair" but think he was just being smart/facetious, didn't want to give me "the asked for raise" Used to tell the mostly scruffy-bearded, beer-bellied guys in the breakroom that it really was a "face-beard too" that, for whatever reason, was simply growing out the wrong side of my head?

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I think I need a trim for mine to grow longer
     Maddie. that's a myth - to keep the hairdressers employed? I mean hair is DEAD, perhaps less split-ends might keep you from pulling it out so much after a shampoo? At 64 am surprized still no "shedding" daughter-in-law has offered to color it but otherwise naturally "streaked" (yea right!) dirt-blond with many grey/whites mixed in? (NOT "toe-head platinum" like Elisabeth, my daughter Eli'z'abeth or in my new avatar)

I'd post some "selfies" but always embarrassed hate my smile, my voice, never tried "makeup" (mannish lazy/neglectful?) etc . . well, new pic is a close "faceapp" rendition of me that's "not bad" but very "retouched" obviously, not exactly, always dreaming!

Ever try James Dean "Sweet Almond Mint" shampoo?
I'm positively addicted no "rinse" required but it is tres 'cher!

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« Reply #10 on: May 20, 2020, 05:29:40 PM »
Hi Keira. Nice avatar. Could you please re-punctuate the following?
(ps: I take BACK my "goodwill" comment: (new, unsuspecting "guests" won't see it!)
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« Reply #11 on: May 20, 2020, 06:06:03 PM »
        Thanks! OMG struggling with my literary7 style? Ever read Thomas Mann ie: "Joseph and His Brothers"? Never did realize "his struggles with his homosexuality" . Perhaps there's a message there?

Winner of the 1929 German languaged Nobel Prize in Literature he was considered The MASTER of l o n g - r u n - on - s e n t e n c e s which, when translated into English, surely became even more UNWIELDY  thus, having read each and every one of his works over two long summers at Grandm'a in Iowa . . .

. . apparently I'm irretrievable D A M A G E D as well?

Yikes! Yer right quite messy but this is NOT an english grammer forum /either/ find IGNORE button /or/ get over it (am not "translating" will endeavor better in the future!)

(ps: I take BACK my "goodwill" comment: (new, unsuspecting "guests" won't see it!)

Huh?
Yeah. Right. I guess asking for intelligible English is too big an ask.
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« Reply #12 on: May 20, 2020, 06:23:43 PM »
. . apparently I'm irretrievable D A M A G E D as well?[/size]

No, you're just W E I R D !  ;D ;D

Of course I mean that in a kind and friendly way. Your unique odd style has a certain curious charm even if I can't figure out what you're trying to say 90% of the time. Maybe if I got high things would make more sense as we're obviously on different astral planes.  :o

Oh yeah, thanks for the comment about muh hairs. That fell under the 10% understandable category!  :)

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« Reply #13 on: May 22, 2020, 04:13:19 AM »
. . to simply be like my sisters . . Capable of love as they are.
I'm curious... How about you?

      Aye! Love! What is that the swishy Joining Hormone that always fails when the hardcore divorce contract then kicks in? Z correct if wrong but never "ma ma marri ed"(can't even say it!) spared that indignity? God may FORGIVE REDEEM YOU but the state of Mississippi is a 'lil more hardnosed than Him! (a paraphrase from "Oh Brother Where Art Thou")

     My sisters certainly fit that bill at least in the sense that, being married to "bums" (just like I was as well) they are the only ones who "worked & paid bills" always giving freely while expecting/getting less in return. My best "T supporter" is older sister "P" who calls me all-the-time. A recovered alcoholic whose overweight, drug-dealing husband *finally* passed away - even my nephew "R Jr" wouldn't go to the funeral take THAT you useless jerk (lol but the drugs were alleged GOOD!)

     My 'lil sister "T" idolized and spoiled me when we were kids lol she always used to bring her new girlfriends around just to meet "me"? Well, it later became a *curse* in my life . . in liking girls who liked me but, being much younger, thus couldn't love back & date? She married a Southern Bible thumper and, for various other reasons, we don't speak much these days kinda reminds me of own daughter -> great mom, love & heart but terrible at picking MEN at WORK . .
The Lord Will Provide?

     As far as "role-models" go all the women in my family are short, problem there for sure[1] and, especially on mother's side, all were Irish potato pickin' Tough As Nails! An Ex-Marine herself any one of my Aunts could definitely "Jack You Up"!

Didn't acquire that talent. Never fought with boys

     Keri, an 'ole "Trans & Proud" friend who's supposed to SIGN HERE, calls me "jellyfish" and, having insensitive Aspergers, actually likes to pick fights is a highly aggressive, pre-defensive verbal ASSHOLE and 1st to admit it that's true! But, to her credit, swears I'm an "empath" as well? ;) (which I interpret as being "an innocent, open book" and not a direct threat to her at all?)

    You'd 'ave to reach back to Iowa grandmother, father being 'only son', to get a hint of "me". Tall & slim, having lived to 98, she put up with grandpa's indiscretions and was a very independent business lady who drove her own "buggy" (a 1986 Crown Victoria, huge Chrysler Imperial before that) 'til they nailed her dirt-box shut!



My two fav "star girls" of all time, always had posters of both,
are Catherine Deneuve and Lauren Bacall.

(google's translation has Catherine's pronouns all mixed up?)

[footnote 1] unlike most, God made me the way every "real modern woman" should be actually like, prefer TALL but still do look UP to my Navy niece "B" who's a beautiful 6'2'! (lol suspect it's The Drugs, especially "the caine"?)
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« Reply #14 on: May 28, 2020, 02:38:06 AM »
Thank you, Kiera!

 :)  :)  ;) Thought ya might be interested! And just sent Maddie a "clickable copy" 'cause I know how much a struggle "copy/paste" can be on a phone! (unsure if ya's noticed but i do "links" as "only_members" hoping to frustrate "the crawlers" into actually joining, signing up!)

        I NEED to renew my PASSPORT, grow weary of "online", would very much like to start visiting these people in person. Church's "woe-to-men" group that meets once a week uses google's "Meet" and my therapist's Advanced Support Group (lol translation -> an "older crowd" too) every other Tues uses Zoom BUT IT'S JUST NOT THE SAME . .

       My church is restarting "live services" next Sunday and ya actually have to make "a reservation" and "have a ticket" for admission . . just to speak to God? lol Assume it's still gonna be FREE, donations only? (George Carlin -> "Why is it that God always seems to need MONEY!")

Posted transhaven link to my private, local members only facebook group am trying to stir up more "interested parties"!

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« Reply #15 on: May 29, 2020, 01:31:07 AM »
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Have fun sitting the babies  Kiera :)



      My two MONSTERS plus there's Lillie (4) and another in the oven! Note "K"s right hand she's had two surgeries already doc says there's not enough bone to separate two joined middle fingers. Last time they tried to convert her index finger into a thumb.
      I am definitely "the favorite" but then again aren't all grandparents? My grandmother(Arizona), 'ex's grandmother(NewYork) and daughter-in-law's grandmother(here in Georgia) were/are always very accepting of my obvious "gay femininity" suppose when one reaches a certain older age sexuality ceases to seem so important. It's either that or what? A quote my mother always lived by:

"Seen it all.
Heard it all.
Done it all.
Just can't remember it all!"

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« Reply #16 on: May 29, 2020, 05:12:17 AM »
Adorable ❤️

They don't even look  like monsters in a still photo ;)

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« Reply #17 on: May 29, 2020, 05:27:30 AM »
They don't even look  like monsters in a still photo ;)
Oh The Girl is, very I N D E P E N D E N T minded, and why 'ave an order in for another BOY instead!

(ps: moved to "Blogs", vowed to better keep "threads" from derailing . . )

I did not have any choice or level of control . .
      OMG concur wholeheartedly Elisabeth! Have yet to read your "massive wall" but for some it was "inevitable" yet for others? Not so much! Some felt they had a choice, others NOT! "Lady luck" favored me in so many other ways  I wouldn't characterize it as "envy" but, rather, joy at seeing each of us having found their own unique way regardless!

"The past" IS important isn't final outcomes what it's really all about?

      Suppose my "survival" depended on getting shifted as well? I switched schools many times between 7th grade and finishing high school. Between one divorced parent and another. From state to state. From dating as many guys as girls . . and, in always being the "new kid", chose to settle down and abide what father desired of me most which was a "career & family" of my own?

On hindsight my dad had his own experience(s) with "transsexualism" before I ever even came along . .
It was 1977 for me and I was 22.
You and I are 'bout the same age. I turned 22 in Feb of '78 and while my second "ah-ha moment", upon seeing "everybodytransitioning", was in 2005 I was also soon giving up any hope of transitioning around the same time you were having your SRS.

I remember all TOO clearly and older sister "P", upon calling me just yesterday, added yet another piece to my personal puzzle as she said "Georgette", a close personal formally male co-worker friend of my fathers in early 60's, was beautiful, absolutely stunning and she'd (my sister) try to find a pic she once had of her as well

How to elaborate? (without digressing into a word jumble unable to understand?)

My father was hired Aug 18th, 1956 (while mom was preg with me)
I was hired Aug 18th, 1978 (and don't think "same date" was pure co-incidence)

        Everybody at "the job" knew my father all too well and, with expectations of "me" being high, certainly didn't want to bring any embarrassment down upon him. Having always flown, being exposed to, "airline life" since day one I achieved my goal of being a flight attendant but it was not in the style, or sex, of what I otherwise always wanted to "be" . .
. . the eternal and inflammatory question . . if you’ve always known you should have been a girl/boy whatever, how could you not be that and what took you so long?
       No not inflammatory at all one quick, obvious answer for me being: given similar circumstances like supportive family, relative wealth and good education opportunities I didn't exhibit the same "predisposition", certain CONVICTION you seem to 'ave possessed back then when to me nothing was "obvious", just remained in my own 'lil shell . . .

lol And something akin to what Antisthenes so glowingly alluded to . .  simply a differing "temperament/personality"? Of course there's always more to it but I never did let "the dysphoria", or anything else untoward for that matter, get the best of me and always considered transition "a desirable option", a matter of manageable degree and, utimately, "a choice" which still do to this day?

Have otherwise found "fulfillment" in so many other similarly mundane ways . . WHO KNOWS? Perhaps not TS afterall? Maybe just a lifetime TV? The bottom line it's never has been a "major crisis point" for me and, having yet another life-time to live ??? , "which gender" doesn't seem to matter much these days. Like in the movie "Orlando", it all a fantasy allegory anyway?
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In my 60s . . more selective . . haven’t been stuck . . 20 years . . unlimited unexpected adventures and possibilities potentially . . looking for them or for them to find me. I may be old but I ain’t dead yet . .

 :) :) ;) Exactly!

Rationalizations over . . now back to our regularly scheduled programming!

(never was good at writing bio's, perhaps because still don't know "the ending"?)
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« Reply #18 on: May 30, 2020, 01:39:01 PM »
. . a cozy apt. above a garage in a safe and quiet part of a nice quiet suburb. I would soon have a college degree and a good paying gov't. job.

        I stepped from a failing junior year at University into a union job that my father had set up for me but, it being Aug of '78, I felt compelled to give up any further hope of transition 'cause, being Chief/Vice President of a well known international company, EVERYBODY famously knew me as "dad'sfirst lastname"s lil boy" . .

Fate was Sealed, for time being at least.

. . except for Lisa there is nothing there that we can't somehow relate to. A type VI is really as rare as hen's teeth. I'm probably in the type V range and the rest of us can pick your own poison.

       Well I've been remiss Complete, have yet to finish assigned homework, am only on page #87 which is entitled "Social position". In looking at Harry's chart I see little difference between type 'V' and type 'VI' aside perhaps from "Total psychosexual" and a reference to being "young" - lol with no mention of "residing at a bar" at all?

Living in a "dry" county with no bars or liquor stores perhaps Elisabeth should try what I do instead ->
. . as in hanging 'round churches, no "belief" required, they love doin' what they claim "Jesus" already did (rather redundant supposedly "saved" already?) which is "redeeming people" and devoting one's life to yet another young soul?

        I would definitely be stuck in type 'IV'. Without making any value judgments, 'cause do enjoy reading 'bout Elisabeth's escapades and share her desire to find another who 'D'oesn'tGTOW, but when one adds "with children" into the mix the whole idea of what it means to "be a woman" changes radically and, as may of already stated, with "no regrets" registered.

        As far as "work/occupation" goes always wore a "unisex" uniform, equal pay/opportunity and all of that although by the 80's my early desire to be in a more specifically "female role" of a 60's style international FA was frustrated not only by changes in the nature of "the job" (new 747 service) but the fact I'd always be considered a "gay male" as well . .

As a kid of 12 (1968) father had been teaching me how to "drive" a 707 sim even before "a car" and took many jumpseat rides - actually lived that show - but "pilot" was older brother's dream not mine! ;)

Always in the "main cabin" background, behind the "male scene", ungloriously just making things work there's no accounting for personality types but was definitely a "daddy's girl", in my mind at least!
       
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