where it's at now

[zirconia]

Maddie,

Do you think more often of what you do, or what may come?
Which do you prefer?

What might you yourself want to hold on to?

[Maddie]

Maddie,

Do you think more often of what you do, or what may come?
Which do you prefer?

What might you yourself want to hold on to?

I think more often about what I do.

I prefer what may come.

I might want to hold on to somebody else.

[Maddie]

Hey everybody,
The garden reports green beans!
Experimenting with ways to eat them.

It is prerequisite to know I can be with a guy in order to go forward for the bottom surgery.
I like women but not enough to act like a man.
Dysphotic about sexual congress.
(dysphotic, if it is a word, is how it feels)
No previous desire for vagina...
This is changes.

[Maddie]

I present as female (well I think so).
Legalities and HRT too, but no operation.

This is a work in progress.
Research is work.

Men and women hit on me. Not putting up with much right now, especially not from women. I know where that road gets me, and heck I was already equipped for that.

Guys are dirt or afraid oh well.

I don't hold strong hopes for finding a relationship, nor am I proposing this to anyone on this forum.
But wondering if this sounds like a fair deal...?

I want a guy to play with my little breasts and spank me in exchange for backscratches and blowjobs.

If they just want to vent on me their problems in one-way fashion, they need to pay up front.

Sound generally like a fair trade?